We have all had moments in our lives where an event or series of events take over your life and everything else does not matter. If you are lucky, you go back to what you loved before. If you are dramatically changed to the core, you chose a different path. I have been refocusing on what is important to me now and shedding away the distortions not helping me get to my core inner value.

Distortions or distractions started with a major reorganization in our company, out with the old and in with the new. I was not concerned as I was always a top performer and like change as I grew up with it. I made the cut for first round but did not see the storm brewing where everyone was out for themselves and I would be on the receiving end of someone taking advantage of the corporate upheaval to retaliate against me as I had in the past had to report misconduct as part of responsibilities of the job.

This process put me in a tail spin which I was not sure I was going to pull out of it. I had no control, no one to turn to for guidance, and everyone was fighting to survive in the new regime. I did the best thing at the time, took a step back to reassess what just happened as confusion existed as four months early I was recognized as one of the best in the company and now being forced out. What to do next? I knew I loved my job before the turmoil took over and now know stepping back specifically that I love to help people be better. Down and out but now with a plan.. get back to what I was doing but in another company. So the search continues in a tough market to fit my values to a company where I can add value. Step one is clear and in process.

Next is to reassess what is important in personal life: family and personal time with hobbies. Spend more time doing family functions and adding value and focusing on hobbies which add value to my well being and get rid of the rest.

One hobby which was impacted was my reef tanks and the companion blog. Both now in steps of resurrection. The tank has been nuked with only the pair of clown fish and a red leg crab surviving the neglect over the last year of me trying to get my focus back in line.

Today took first steps with the reef tank by complete cleaning it, removing rocks to kill off nuisance items, remove equipment not contributing to health of tank with focus on minimizing approaches and making husbandry easier. Once these are mastered and I have earned the right to restock, start the next phase which will be a slow and tactical process.

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